To My Mother

I realize that Mother's Day was yesterday, but I figured I would go ahead with this tribute anyways. This is about as candid as I will ever be online so enjoy. Yesterday turned out to be a surprising wonderful day for me. I have a very hard time with Mother's Day, but Kevin made it enjoyable and helped me to realize just how much my mother means to me. He decided to tell me a story of when he first met my parents which occurred years before we even started dating back in December 2007. A little background: because we were not dating at the time he met my parents, neither myself, Kevin, nor my parents seemed to pay much attention to it and therefore could not recall any details from the encounter. I had also met his parents the same time, but because of certain situations, I blocked several months of time out of my mind. A few weeks ago, Kevin and I went home so that he could meet my parents in the official "boyfriend" capacity. But back to the story. Yesterday Kevin confessed that he did actually remember some details of that first meeting. I was shocked that he was just now telling me this and I had a desire to know because honestly I cannot remember a thing. For those of you who know my past, 2007 was a very difficult year for me and I was trying to cope with a lot of emotions, but was unsuccessful. You could even go as far as to say that I was mad at the world and everyone in it. We were at my grandparents house for Christmas and Kevin stopped by(he was visiting his parents for Christmas who live close by) to see if Kyle and I wanted to go hang out with him. Kyle was completely on board, but I was much more hesitant because I did not want to go and have fun, I was content with being miserable. Kevin said, "come on Katy, let's go cruise the 'vard." Apparently this made me chuckle a little because let's be real, we are not in the 80's, no one "cruises the 'vard" anymore lol. I decided to go and as we were walking out the door, my mom pulled Kevin aside and thanked him. Kevin replied, "what for?" My mom simply said, "for making her smile."

When Kevin told me this, I just started crying. Why? Because my mom is predictable. Predictable in the sense that her love for her children comes before anything else. I could be the worst, the grumpiest, the meanest person towards my mother and she would still always wish for my happiness and love me nonetheless. My mom has been there for me through the worst of times and the best of times. She is unfaltering in her love for me and I am truly blessed to have her. When she smiles, she lights up an entire room. Her example to me is unparalleled. I hope that I can have mean and terrible children so that I can exhibit the unwavering kindness that she has shown me lol. I really don't want kids like me, that was a joke. What I am trying to say is thank you for never giving up on me, thank you for showing me what unconditional love is, thank you for being my constant support, thank you for everything.

Mom, I love you.